Demi Lovato opened up about her 2018 relapse and hospitalization on the March 4 episode of “The Ellen DeGeneres Show.”
The 27-year-old singer remembers the night that she initially relapsed, and she said that a big part of her struggle was her eating disorder progressively getting worse.
“It led me to being really, really unhappy," Lovato explained to DeGeneres. "I asked for help and I didn't receive the help that I needed.”
Lovato claims that her professional team was a large part of why she was unable to get better. After sending a message to her team during this time in hopes to receive guidance, Lovato said that they responded with "You're being very selfish, this would ruin things for not just you but for us as well."
After receiving this response, Lovato said that she felt “completely abandoned” and turned to harder drugs.
“So I drank, and that night I went to a party and there was other stuff there, and it was only three months before I ended up in the hospital with an OD," she said.
Lovato admitted to her addiction in a single titled “Sober” only a month before her overdose. The single was ultimately a cry for help, with the beginning lyrics being, “I got no excuses/ For all of these goodbyes/ Call me when it's over/ 'Cause I'm dying inside”
Lovato’s newest single, “I Love Me,” was released on Friday, March 6. She described the song as having an “upbeat message” about self-love, opposing her previous single in 2018.
The singer assures that the rest of her upcoming album will not be as upbeat as this recent single, and there will be “ugly” and “honest” songs “that will make you cry.”
The night of Lovato’s overdose was only three months after her initial relapse. She recalls this night in July 2018 and the aftermath of it.
"Ultimately, I made the decisions that got me to where I am today. It was my actions that put me in the position I'm in," Lovato said on “Ellen.”
After saying that she learned from her mistakes live on-air, she encouraged others struggling with addiction or similar problems to do the same.
"I think it's important that I sit here on this stage and tell you at home or you in the audience or you right here that if you do go through this, you yourself can get through it… as long as you take the responsibility, you can move past it and learn to love yourself the way you deserve to be loved,” Lovato said.